Thursday, July 12, 2012

A little update....

Soooo it's with my head hanging in shame that I report.... There has been no change. None at all. Quite possibly a gain. I am ashamed. And I have now had the third person so Rudely as me how I got fat again. In different words, but meaning the same. *sigh* This is the worst feeling..... EVER. I don't want to live this way. So why can't I get on track!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????

I feel so lazy and tired. I KNOW it's because of what I'm eating. It's affecting the whole family in such a negative way. I am hurting my family. Myself. And my relationship with my husband. He accepts me how I am regardless of size. But I am so self conscious I don't let him near me :(

I need to lose this weight. It's so scary to see how easy and fast it was to gain......


  1. Oh April give to yourself some space! I think you need this. Don't think about diets and weights... just find yourself.

  2. Do you need a buddy to keep in contact with ??? Like an online pen pal going through weight issues to keep you motivated if so let me know your email and I'll email you :)

  3. I'm very sorry to hear that people can be so mean.
    We should be uplifting people and not kicking them when they are down.
    I know how you feel, my family reminded me every day that I was getting fat.
    I wish you the best.
    Please remember that it has to be your time to do this. I remember struggling to lose weight, working my butt off and not seeing results. This is something that you have to be ready for, and unfortunately it is a difficult step to take emotionally.
    I have only lost 15 pounds on WW in 13 weeks, but I am not discouraged because I know it works. I just have to be accountable and log.
    Good luck on your journey. You can do this.

  4. Hey April! We miss you! Any new about you?

  5. Hey April,
    I wonder if your depression/bipolar meds are working. When I'm not on the right meds, I stop doing anything to take care of myself (eating right, exercising, even brushing my hair). Also, I am reading some books on self-esteem. They are really helping. We both know the problem is in our head, not our fridge. "Self Esteem" by Mathew McKay is a good read, you might want to check it out. I relate to everything you write or post on YouTube, thanks for being honest, a lot of us feel the same as you do but don't have the courage to share like you do. It's a gift you give each of us, so thanks!